3 months

when i think about what's new in my life since November not much comes to mind but when i think about how much Kamden has changed and learned in 3 months I realize how much has changed! i absolutely cannot get enough of watching him show me over and over and over something new he figured out!! i feel like i just stare at him in awe. I MADE THAT!? i never thought i could do something so PERFECTLY! his dad had a huge help in the making process, obvi. but when it comes to looks, he is my TWIN & more and more people tell me this on the daily. funny how i can look at him and see how incredibly perfect he is from his bushy eyebrows, little top lip & plump bottom lip, chubby cheeks, his curved pinky finger, his DELICIOUSLY perfect toes and the way the 2nd & 3rd toes have the tiniest "webbing" because the crease doesn't come all the way down like the others & how his mean mug faces and little fits are okay and make him human... but i dont look at myself and love myself this way at all yet i have EVERY.SINGLE.THING. that i just listed about Kamden on my own person. he has helped me see myself in a better light and i do love myself, dont get me wrong, i just am beyond hard on myself and want my 20 year old tight body back! i can dream haha

what's new? well in December I started a job at my dream company, Banner Hospital, and I'm working full time. I was working two jobs until the beginning of this month but although money is tighter on one income now, I am grateful for the time i gained to do life with my baby more. his new favorite thing is going on bike rides on our beach cruiser & he LOVES his new helmet! haha i crack up at it because he likes to keep it on even in the house!!

in a few weeks I have to start packing up our condo because Kamden and I will be moving into a HOUSE!!!! FINALLY, a yard for my son and my 2 dogs to play in freely and Kam will have his own room!!!! I've worked hard to get here and when I look at my bank account i dont feel like i've worked hard enough but we have plenty of food and endless love so we're rich as all hell :) i'm dreading the packing and moving because my move out date is by mid April and from April 2nd-9th we will be in HAWAII for my sister's wedding!!!! i'm so excited to go and be a part of her amazing day! the stress of the costs of it all are killing me though & the anxiety of flying 6 hours with an 18 month old (at the time) is unreal. DO ANY OF YOU HAVE TIPS ON WHAT TO KEEP HIM BUSY WITH AND/OR OILS TO CALM HIM?? i'm not into the idea of giving him benadryl for the flight like plenty of parents have suggested lol to each his own ;)
until then we will just enjoy all of my free time playing outside, mornings out front while i drink my coffee and Kam explores, collecting treasures in his treasure jar that he just cant part with, and taking so many pictures and videos because i dont want to miss or forget a thing!!

xoxoxo,
tor